Already Slipping....

I can't quite call this a failure just yet. I refuse to. If every time I missed a day of running it would be called a failure then I wouldn't be able to live with myself.I suppose I can call this a failure when I stop writing, and who knows when or if that day is going to come.

Fatigue should belong in the same family as death or taxes. It is inevitable. You can try to outrun it but it's eventually going to catch up with you and you will be powerless to stop it.

My Friday afternoons are my moments of complete rest. It was a tradition that I would put on a movie, lie in bed, and never see the end of the movie due to my slipping into a deep slumber. I am going to try to avoid this tradition in the near future for the sake of this project but today I realized my true motivation.

In the morning I always turn on my computer before class so that I could see the temperature and dress accordingly. This morning my computer wouldn't turn on. I stewed in my own frustration for a moment, guessed the temperature from looking outside, and brought my computer to the shop after class. They said to leave it there and they would call me when they were finished with it. I have had my fair share of experiences with computer shops and it normally takes quite a few days for the computer to come back. Therefore, when I came back to my apartment, I was about to go on a run when I realized there was no way I could write about it, so what was the point?

I then fell into bed and caught up on some much needed sleep. The whirring of a vibrating phone awakened me an hour later, "Sean, this is CompUtopia, we have your computer ready." It took only one day. I began to walk over and while I was jubilant to receive my computer again after such a short time, I began to grow worried. The reason I didn't run was because of the blog, therefore the only motivation I have in running right now is this blog. On the other hand, I do need something to help me with starting to train again. Then maybe I won't need the blog anymore and can just run without my computer...but for now I'm still needing this.